it has beennnnn such a long time i am on this page......

wanted to write from so long.... finally.... i am here...

now 3 years of new journey more of down and very less of uppsssssss

compromising every day with life..... thinking there will be a better in life.... may sun will shine in my life to some day.. but i can just see dark and dark days....

working but not at all happy inside... feels like i am forcing my self to do something which hate to do...making up my mind every morning ....it is ok one more day but don't know when it will end.


it is affecting my personal life, fighting with my self..... keep asking my self why iam here?

why i got married? to torture my self.. more

i was having better life before??? what i want to do.... why i got married just bcoz every one told me i should ?? still can not find answers

i left everything behind for this new relation and ....and where i am... lost all alone walking with out any direction... looking for what?

to start family? to have some respect for my self... in the eyes of others.... is it god listening to my prayers... can he stop punishing me... please...

i have not succeed in anything yet not on my job end not in my personal life....when this will end when i will start my happy marriage life...

i have broken up many time in a hopes this will end soon but... when... tired dragging myself... away from my people dont feel happpy peace in side.. is some one can help to understand...

can some one give me answer...